Lol - It makes me want to chuck the lot in the bin!
No Sue, this is called inspiration! One day you will achieve this or something close to it and you will look at the noobies and say,
If you can play to the crowds and keep your virtue,
Or play to the Kings – nor lose the common touch,
if neither crotchets nor split reeds can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of long tones,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And – which is more – you’ll be a saxophonist, my son!
😉